The relationship you have with an ex will always be difficult. In my case (and also the case for a lot of trans people), breaking up wasn’t caused by a fight, or because the two of us no longer loved each other. It was a weird situation that forced us apart, and even if we still loved each other a lot, it could never be the same. I know it is impossible for her to change her sexual orientation. She will never be attracted to women, and thus our relationship could no longer be. But my love for her is still as strong as it was, and I can’t help it, but I need to know how she’s doing, I need to call her from time to time.